itsy bitsy etsy love

these little headpieces make me feel like a dreaded romantic

the most beautiful necklace...hmmm....

secret agent? more like agent of gorgeousness

a necklace designed w/ one of my fave childhood stories in mind.

and...i am not this obsessed...yet...

withdrawl...

It's now been 24 hours and no vampires. I am feeling a little like I am missing something, simultaneously I am feeling a little pathetic, so pathetic I will probably keep it a secret when I re-read them.

my complex brain...

my head is killing me...


I went to my doctor's appointment today for my referral to a new neurologist. My new big city doc was not impressed by what my hometown doc had me on...in fact he told me never to take the stuff again and commended me on having so many headaches and not being addicted to my old medicine...(it's in part a barbiturate and he has had quite a few patients very addicted to it)...so he wrote a script and did a lot of tests and promptly sent me to the neurologist. Unfortunately I am not hopeful....
I have tried...these drugs over the years...
Midrin, Fioricet, Roxicet, Imitrex, Relpax, Frova, & Maxalt.
I have tried these preventatives...
Chiropractic, Massage, Biofeedback, Amitryptelene (boo weight gain), Lexapro, not to mention my recent spurt of self-medicating w/ a pm pain reliever every night (I swear I quit Bre...now I just can't sleep).
No such luck yet...he mentioned beta blockers possibly being something I could use as a preventative. It's possible he might put me on a low dose anti-depressant to help me sleep or even Ambien.
The bad part is there are many triggers and many of them are unavoidable (barometric pressure changes, being a girl) and some seem impossible to avoid at times (lack of sleep/insomnia, stress & anxiety).
Anyone have any luck w/ a preventative here? Leave a comment.
As it is I am having debilitating migraines between 1-2 times per week, and bad (but not debilitating) tension headaches about 4 days a week. I have about 1-2 symptom free days a week on average...

In more exciting news, I see 3 of my besties in 2 more sleeps (or lack thereof)...Kate, Whit & Em, we MUST take pics. Can't wait to see you all. xox.

ketchup

I think it's time to catch up around here. Here's photodocumentation that I have in fact left my apartment in the last couple months...

price, shan, keenan, and mike enjoy miss missy higgins at the record bar

vanessa caught the tail end too...

i scored at an estate sale...all of this for about 10$ and the boots are Guess? and didn't appear to be worn...they are now though!

my sis and i at the royals for mom's birthday

us 3: tay, shan, matt

here's where i spend most of my waking hours

of course i have a crack-a-cola on my desk.

and recent endeavors in scrapbooking...

this was exactly one year ago, keenan got on a bus for NY and the "long distance" part of our relationship began.

Brielle is 3!

In other news, I have replaced my sparkplugs, a negative battery cable, front brake pads, and one tire within about 4 weeks and now there is something wrong with my power locks. I was also rear-ended at a red light. I am thinking my car hates me.

I don't have a picture, but the Twilight series has also deliciously, and ridiculously stolen many hours of my life lately. I am dragging through Breaking Dawn, only because I want to make it last, since it's the end...yes I am that pathetic.

My design team term is over soon on Tallyscrapper, while I am sad to see it over, I will enjoy a little time off-line occasionally.

Work is going well...I downloaded the application for registry to become a registered drama therapist...so I can be Shan, RDT. And suddenly I am remembering this video we watched in grad school about the nightmare of registry and it is becoming real. And I am setting up phone dates w/ my mama hen already and hoping for the best. I will send it in officially in March. I am hoping by starting now I can avoid the holiday doldrums, hey it might even snap me out of my personal doldrum.

Still cooking and baking to avoid stress. I am getting pretty good, and if my car continues to breakdown, I am sure I will get even better. Last night was garlic mashed potatoes, banana bread and lemon butter chicken. This weekend was baked rosemary chicken, mashed potatoes and fudge brownies. I think cupcakes are on the slate for this weekend, as well as chili (with ground turkey, of course) on Sunday. I am not sure about the rest of the week yet.

I am 2-0 in both my fantasy FB leagues and my Broncos are 2-0, so FB is so far, so good. Can't wait to see some in person.

And now that I have bored you to death, I am off, probably to bake or cook.

What is in a name?

What Shannon Means

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

physics

what i've been thinking...

it's like, as hard as he tried to, he couldn't destroy all that sadness that lived and breathed inside him. and when he died it split all the atoms of the sadness and sent it out into the hearts of every one of us who ever loved him. and it's sitting there now. heavy.

switcher changer

i changed up my music quite a bit. that is all.

ain't no sunshine

"if you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all." thumper, Bambi

ok. i believe i am officially in a funk. i thought the passing of august would cure it. i am sick with migraines too much. i don't sleep well. the weather is depressing and troublesome for my headaches. my job is rewarding but i have to give so much of myself and my perfectionism is trying to kill me. nightmares are occuring almost nightly. i don't find myself caring about too much these days (all my obsessions of old are tired to me...scrapping, saving $, watching my shows, politics, talking to friends, leaving the apartment) none of it appeals to me.

i don't really believe in getting too negative on here, so thus the silence, no one wants to read a blog-full of complaints. i am sure i will re-emerge soon, hoping that going to the gym and "faking-it til i make it." will cure me.