When I am blue or overwhelmed I get quiet. I can tell more about the number of posts I have in a month than
what the posts say.
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| easy pea-sy |
Sloane is doing well. She is 7.5 months old (16 pounds, 24 inches). Time flies with her.
Solid Pureed foods are our daily adventure. She LOVES green vegetables. I have to disguise any veggie that is not green with a few spoonfuls of spinach, peas or green beans. Making my own food for her has turned out to be fun and super cheap (it's honestly like 1/10 of the price to do it this way). Keenan however longs for the day when our kitchen no longer smells like steamed squash and our ice cube trays contain ice instead of veggie-cubes.
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| excuse the blackberry quality-- here's her new trick: nose scrunching & rapid sniffing |
I am trying to ever remain positive but feel like sinking. I desperately want to move back to my home town but it is so small and difficult for me to find full time employment where I could carry our insurance (ah the worries of a woman to be wed to a starving artist). I had an interview at an agency similar to the one I work for but have yet to hear back from them (so I am left assuming the worst). As I didn't get that job I started to think maybe this is the push I need to start my own business. It would be the gamble of my lifetime (although I know that the market and location are right) but at least I would be surrounded by my family. Insurance is really the most
troublesome horrible no-good very bad worrisome thing. But as I worry a small voice inside me whispers:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you
not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
”- M. Williamson
As the small voice gets louder I pray I will have the courage to listen.
title courtesy of the band perry: if I die young
