miss live and let live

miss live and let live

and when they're out for blood

i always give

-ani difranco

Work is awful right now. Had to terminate an employee today. In my year and one month of employment I've had to fire 7 people. This might not seem like a lot, however I only have 7 positions that I supervise. Today I felt reminded of when I was a teaching assistant and I would have to answer "Why did you fail me?" I remember wanting to answer "You failed yourself." Today I wanted to answer: "You fired yourself." But instead I was increasingly cerebral and technical (I get this way when I am nervous...intellucualizing is my defense mechanism).

By firing someone I have essentially just created double the work for myself, since I will now work his position during the days (that I cannot find subs) and my position at night. Not looking forward to the next month.

Working toward forming some new goals for myself. I joined a couple on-line book clubs. I've never done a book club before but I'm hoping it will help motivate me to spend more time reading. I read pretty quickly I just never sit down to do it. (This might be because I find it hard to stop once I really get started).

you are my sweetest downfall...

"the history books forgot about us and the Bible didn't mention us, the Bible didn't mention us (not even once)"-regina spektor, samson

photo credit

Started my wall collage tonight (will post photos when finite) and am thinking of adding this way of showing off some great old polaroids (sans the star thing).

I love the tacks and the ribbon and the clothespins. Plus I have checked out some more involved ways of displaying them but I know that I will never follow through on creating them.

Wishing I was going to Texas for the weekend with the rest of the scrapbookers...but I am sure I will have a fab weekend here as well. MaryRenee will be in KC! Also I have a massage booked for Friday afternoon. This weekend's goal is relaxation. Hopefully I will find some.

Listening to my blog music is making me a little nostalgic...missing things I shouldn't, or should try not to. Maybe it's time for a change? My friend Jess would say it's "time for an exorcism". I guess we'll see if I am ready to let the music go.

there must be a light of some kind

play along

I hadn't scrapbooked since April. Life had been tumultous and the design team over at Category Stories was very understanding and patient. However, it's time to get back into the swing of things. What better prompt to pull me out of my slump than a literary one? So, who would you be if you were a fictional character?

My take is a bit different. I was telling a story to Keenan, not long after we met. I must have been telling it with some ferver because he said "Slow down Scout." I was quite taken aback, scanning the conversations we had, wondering if I had told him that To Kill a Mockingbird was one of my favorite books, or that if I ever was lucky enough to have a daughter, I would really entertain the idea of naming her "Scout".

So I asked him "Why did you call me that?" And he replied: "You are like this little girl always running around trying to shoot people with your tiny slingshot." (Although, I think he meant metaphorically shoot, since I am a bit of a pacifist)

Regardless, the nickname stuck. Now whenever I get fired up about social injustices or even something smaller, I am sure he will remind me to take a deep breath before I get out my slingshot.

"'cause every time i try to hold my tongue it slips like a fish from a line"

-ani difranco

her kindness bangs a gong

"My mother... she is beautiful, softened at the edges and tempered with a spine of steel. I want to grow old and be like her."— Jodi Picoult

My mama and Taylor came to kc yesterday. We went to lunch at On the Border, shopped, and watched the Royals beat the Twins! Great day. Mom got me this Brighton key chain for getting my RDT (registered drama therapist). I am not necessarily into Brighton. I am, however into owls. To see why...LOOK. More pics from our girls-day to follow...

The weekend was lovely...just too short. Definitely not feeling like working today after all the fun yesterday. Went to Keenan's show (U Bug Me) this weekend and loved it. The music is fantastic! I need to buy the cd for my niece & nephew.

Also did laundry (laundromat is so much faster than home, and it makes me sit and read) and some thrifting. This week I am hoping to get out to the park and watch the Shakespeare show (Merry Wives...) and get to the movie theatre and see Away We Go.

This weekend we are having a mini-family reunion at my grandfather's request, at my uncle's ranch in the middle of nowhere. Can't wait to see what we come up with to do without the distractions of the internet and the city. I am sure it will be fun!

her clock is stuck on late

shakes at bogey's

kate & baby reese @ the river festival

brandy & kaden

whit & grey
grey's wagon
kaden & my favorite river fest treat

my contribution to date night. chocolate obsession for keenan and PBJ for me

the french toast one didn't make it 'til date night...heavenly

U Bug Me @ the Coterie

Happy Opening Weekend Keenan!

& Many More

Happy 21st Birthday Taylor!

it's more than your heart will allow...

and you thought you had to go to new york. this bakery is right down the street from me. i will be trying the rasberry lemonade and the stuffed french toast flavors soon!

my grandpa started chemo yesterday. my heart is really wishing i was home right now. everything about the last few months has seemed so grey. sometimes feel like i am in the dead of winter when everyone else is in the sunshine (the grass is always greener).

keenan's opening night for U Bug Me is on Friday. he is really enjoying this cast & the music (he gets to play his violin).

we went to a bbq at the artistic director of the theatre's house last night. he has a lovely deck and i even got into the pool (this is only because it was sweltering...usually as a nonswimmer i avoid pools).

my sister taylor turns 21 this weekend. i was hoping to get everyone to kc for a party, but looks like we will be postponing that idea, at least until we figure out what chemo is going to be like for grandpa. so she will be celebrating in our hometown and according to my saturn i am staying put.

thought my car was fixed. ha. it sure fooled me. the money pit is neverending.