heavy boots.

"if we don't talk and we don't breathe, then time won't pass, and time's all we need." NJL

i spent my weekend frantically rushing 11 hours to colorado and then feeling the torturous part of love..knowing that even if i am holding onto you i can still lose you. and i will. and i can't stop it.

when there really isn't anything to say i find myself looking for comfort in others words. here's what i've been reading during these days. i'm vacillating between the book i am currently reading and one of my favorites...these words are all from my favorite.

"Why didn't I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future."

"In bed that night I invented a special drain that would be underneath every pillow in New York, and would connect to the reservoir. Whenever people cried themselves to sleep, the tears would all go to the same place, and in the morning the weatherman could report if the water level of the Reservoir of Tears had gone up or down, and you could know if New York is in heavy boots."

"The end of suffering does not justify the suffering, and so there is no end to suffering."

"I hope that one day you will have the experience of doing something you do not understand for someone you love."

jonathan safran foer....extremely loud & incredibly close